I dont knw if I can do this.....

kate and amanda just left my house. they both drove over 3 hours just to spend the afternoon with me. i just dont knw if i am going to be able to get by this semester without everyone. i know everyone says im going to be ok and its such an experience and that this is an opportunity i cant waste missing my home. but im going to miss everyone so much, really i am. and i feel i can do this. its just going to be really hard. i dont get homesick ever, usually im the one rushing to the next best thing. but for some reason leaving for the semester is extra hard. its never been this hard. usually everyone i leave is leaving too, and i know no one will be together without me. but this time it is different. everyone is going back to lasalle and they are going to have so many adventures without me. and i know i am going to have adventures too, but no one from lasalle will be there to share them with me. i know i should not be complaining about this amazing experience but i just cant help sitting here and crying because from right now it is definite that i wont see any of your faces till may. and that sucks. i want to see you guys. i want everyone to come to ireland. i dont want to go to ireland but then again i do. why does life always have to be this bittersweet, im so excited but so sad at the same time. i think it would be easier if just one lasalle face was going with me. goodness me. maybe my mood will improve by sunday but i think the crying is just going to get worse. hopefully once i am on the plane the excitement will sit in and the sadness will subside. i dont know. i guess thats all for now...off to pack.

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Almost there....

So i figured i would start one of these so you guys can keep up on my life....cuz i know you are so interested...while im on the emerald isle. basically the packing will commence soon, and i guess then it will finally seem real, cuz right now it still doesnt. even after all the tearful goodbyes, and long talks about what it will be like when i'm there and how lasalle will be different, it still doesnt seem real. i guess if the packing doesnt make it hit me, maybe driving to the airport will. it will be fun to get this adventure under way even though i'll be missing everyone here. you guys can't imagine what you all mean to me and i cant believe its going to be five months till i see you again. all the goodbyes and nice things said have made me feel so loved and i will miss you more than you can even know. you will all have a wonderful semester and forget about me by the time i come back. for now i am off to bed only 5 more days in it.....


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